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The Creepy Authoritarianism of Madeleine L’Engle

In her month-to-month column, YA of Yore, Frankie Thomas takes a second take a look at the books that outlined a era.
Madeleine L’Engle (Photograph: Sigrid Estrada / FSG)
The date December 16 is seared into my mind. Each time I see it on a calendar I snap to consideration, pondering, only for a second, That’s the large day! This can be a full neurological accident. There’s nothing important about December 16, besides that in 1996 I noticed it on a flier within the foyer of my elementary college. The flier introduced that Madeleine L’Engle, the Newbery-winning creator of A Wrinkle in Time, could be visiting my college for a book-signing occasion.
Madeleine L’Engle. I used to be going to satisfy her.
I used to be 9 years previous, too younger to maintain a calendar or handle my very own schedule or do a lot of something besides learn. I stood within the crowded foyer and browse the date again and again and over, burning it into myself so I’d always remember: December 16. December 16. Madeleine L’Engle is approaching December 16.
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To me, she was a lot greater than the creator of A Wrinkle in Time. In actual fact, I felt about A Wrinkle in Time the way in which Seashore Boys superfans really feel about “Surfin’ USA”: it was newbie stuff. I used to be a L’Engle completist, or as a lot of a completist as was potential for a 9 12 months previous within the pre-internet period. If a e-book of hers was nonetheless in print, I owned it and had learn it a number of instances. If it was out of print, just like the underrated Prelude, I had borrowed it from the library. I had additionally borrowed a certified kids’s biography of L’Engle herself, so I knew she’d been a author whilst a toddler. That excited me. We have been the identical.
My household purchased its first house pc for Christmas in 1995, and I rapidly commandeered it for afternoon use, spending hours on finish writing novels on ClarisWorks. Having managed, in opposition to all odds, to hold on to these information, I can report confidently that they’re virtually fully plagiarized from Madeleine L’Engle. Typically I’m able to establish verbatim L’Engle phrasing: my heroine is at all times “pushing at her glasses in a attribute gesture,” “lavishly buttering her roll,” disparaging her little sister as “twelve occurring forty-two.” However past the wording, past the spelling of grey as gray, past the usage of dashes to punctuate ideas—is {that a} quirk distinctive to L’Engle?—the actual giveaway is my heroines. They’re all, in a technique or one other, Vicky Austin.
The Vicky Austin books should not L’Engle’s best-known work. In contrast to A Wrinkle in Time and its sci-fi sequels, the Vicky Austin books are home realism, although I take advantage of the time period “realism” loosely. The Austins are an ideal household residing in a rambling farmhouse in rural Connecticut. Their hobbies embody saying grace, having household sing-alongs, studying aloud from Shakespeare and the metaphysical poets, and discussing the theological implications of an Einsteinian universe. Daddy is a rustic physician; Mom is a beautiful housewife who’s at all times cooking elaborate meals whereas taking part in Brahms on the phonograph. The 4 Austin kids are all gifted in numerous methods, however Vicky, an aspiring poet who narrates the novels, is essentially the most gifted of all. Adults love her to items. Here’s a nonexhaustive record of issues adults say to Vicky:
“You have got a creative temperament, Vicky … That’s empathy, and it’s one thing all artists are troubled with.” —Vicky’s beloved Uncle Douglas, Meet the Austins
“I believe the difficulty is that you’ve got too many abilities … You’re in your option to being an actual magnificence, youngster, however it’s all in what’s behind your face. Proper now the whole lot’s promise.” —Uncle Douglas once more, portray her portrait in The Moon by Night time
“You might be to be a light-bearer. You might be to decide on the sunshine … You have already got. I do know that out of your poems.” —Vicky’s minister grandfather, A Ring of Limitless Mild
“I mentioned, ‘Possibly our intimacies are extra valuable if we all know they might be taken away.’ Daddy checked out me and smiled and nodded barely. Aunt Serena mentioned, ‘You might be sensible, my youngster.’ ” —Troubling a Star
“I swore I’d by no means love or marry once more. Your poem helped, Vicky.” —Some lady named Siri who learns to like once more due to Vicky, Troubling a Star
Rereading the Austin books now, I’m struck by how typically Vicky’s reward comes on the expense of one other youngster, a lesser youngster. It’s not sufficient that, in Troubling a Star, Vicky’s poem wins second prize in a college contest; Aunt Serena should additionally level out that Vicky’s poem “was a lot better than the one which gained first prize.” Vicky’s youthful sister, Suzy, who’s “13, occurring thirty,” is allegedly lovely and good and standard with boys, however she principally capabilities as a straw man for the older characters to check unfavorably to Vicky. “Suzy’s received lots going for her, you’re proper,” a classy school boy concedes in A Ring of Limitless Mild (during which, to reiterate, Vicky is 13), “however it’s all on the market, on the floor. I favor to dig for gold.” All through the collection, so far as I can inform, Vicky has no mates her personal age.
How I longed to be adored like Vicky Austin! Greater than something, I needed Madeleine L’Engle to like me the way in which she beloved Vicky—that’s to say, essentially the most.
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After which it was December 16, and I used to be going to satisfy her. What would I put on? Not pants, that was for certain: in The Moon by Night time, Vicky narrates cheerfully that “Daddy doesn’t like ladies in pants,” and neither did L’Engle, if her outfit descriptions have been something to go by. I squeezed myself right into a pleated skirt, sweater, and tights. It was uncomfortable. However I wouldn’t let it present. In A Ring of Limitless Mild, as Vicky grieves for her dying grandfather, her mom reprimands her: “Don’t scowl. You’re getting traces in your brow.”
To distract myself, I raided my leftover Halloween sweet. Solely the unhealthy sweet was left, so I ate a whole field of inexperienced Nerds. Then I regarded within the mirror and noticed, to my absolute horror, that my tongue was stained inexperienced.
My mom tried to reassure me. “She gained’t discover,” she mentioned. “You’re not going to stay your tongue out at her, are you?”
However that wasn’t the purpose. To satisfy Madeleine L’Engle, I wanted to be excellent.
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As an grownup I discover it laborious to disregard the sinister authoritarianism of the Austin books. There’s a violent undercurrent to the adoration of Vicky. In Meet the Austins, the Austins absorb a lately orphaned ten 12 months previous named Maggy, and I don’t consider there exists in all of youngsters’s literature a much less sympathetic portrait of a kid who has simply misplaced her dad and mom. Maggy is impolite, disruptive, “spoiled rotten”; she is scolded for “bragging” about her dad and mom’ deaths and for waking the family along with her screaming evening terrors. (L’Engle’s real-life adopted daughter, Maria, who got here to dwell with L’Engle’s household after the sudden dying of her personal dad and mom, was not a fan of Meet the Austins.)
Lastly Maggy misbehaves one time too many and will get spanked. The spanking happens offstage. That is how Vicky narrates it:
There’s a household story about me once I was Rob’s age or youthful. I’d accomplished one thing I shouldn’t have accomplished, and I’d been spanked, and I climbed up onto Daddy’s lap that night and twined my arms round his neck and mentioned, “Daddy, why is it I’m a lot nicer after I’ve been spanked?”
Properly, Maggy was ever a lot nicer for a very long time after that.
In 1996, nevertheless, I didn’t discover this chilling. The Austins appeared exquisitely literary, and I so needed to be literary. That December, I used to be writing a novel a few fourteen-year-old aspiring poet who’s precociously accepted right into a writing class for adults, the place she is straight away hailed by her instructor, the well-known Virginia Percher, as the most effective author of all of them. “As I went house,” my heroine narrates, “I used to be flying. Virginia beloved my work. Even the adults weren’t nearly as good as me.”
This plotline is plagiarized from A Home Like a Lotus, which is barely an honorary Vicky Austin novel: L’Engle rewrote it, in accordance with that biography I learn, after deciding that it “didn’t match Vicky’s persona.” The rewrite doesn’t seem to have been intensive. Vicky has grow to be Polly; Dr. and Mrs. Austin at the moment are Dr. and Mrs. O’Keefe; beloved Uncle Douglas is beloved Uncle Sandy; fairly youthful sister Suzy is fairly youthful cousin Kate, and so forth.
All of the adults adore Polly, however A Home Like a Lotus is particularly in regards to the adoration of Polly by an ageing heiress and artist named Max. Within the first half of the novel, Max takes the sixteen-year-old Polly underneath her wing, portray her portrait and serving as an all-purpose mentor. Listed here are a few of the issues Max says to Polly:
“I’ll take you over Kate, any day.”
“You have got elegant bones … Stunning slender wrists and ankles, like princesses in fairy tales. Wager Cousin Kate envies them … What splendid eyes you’ve gotten, like bits of fallen sky, and extensive aside, at all times suggesting that you just see issues invisible to lesser mortals.”
“I like you, Polly, love you want my daughter. And you’re keen on me, too, in all of your wonderful innocence.”
Max is a lesbian. (This novel was the place I realized the phrase lesbian.) Polly is uncomfortable with this, however her dad and mom urge her not to consider it; the novel, which was printed in 1984, initially appears like a somewhat clumsy name for tolerance. However then, on the midway level, Max will get too drunk and reaches towards Polly and … does one thing to her:
She bent towards me, whispering, “Oh my little Polly, it’s all so brief—not more than the blink of an eye fixed. Why are you afraid of Max? Why?”
Her breath was heavy with whiskey. Her phrases have been thick. I used to be afraid. I didn’t know what to do, how one can cease her. Tips on how to make her be Max once more.
Within the subsequent flash of lightning she stood up, and within the lengthy satin robe she appeared seven ft tall, and he or she was swaying, so drunk she couldn’t stroll. After which she fell…
I rolled out of the way in which. She reached for me, and he or she was sobbing.
The scene is written so vaguely that there’s no important consensus on what precisely it’s, how far it goes, whether or not it’s merely tried or truly carried out. No matter it’s, Polly is so traumatized by it that she flees Max’s home, barefoot and sobbing, in the course of the evening, in a thunderstorm. She has nightmares and flashbacks for months afterward. She doesn’t need to see or communicate to Max ever once more.
Listed here are some issues adults say to Polly within the second half of the novel:
“Max is a dying lady. You’ll be able to’t simply drop her like a sizzling coal.”
“You must permit even the individuals you most admire to be complicated and contradictory like all people else. The extra attention-grabbing someone is, the extra complicated.”
“The issue is, Polly, you made Max right into a god. Can’t you let her be a bit human?”
Ultimately, Polly is worn down. She reminds herself that Max taught her the whole lot she is aware of, that Max “noticed potential in me that I hardly dared dream of.” She decides that Max have to be “sensible however flawed. Maybe the higher the brilliance, the darker the flaw.” The novel ends with Polly calling Max on the cellphone to apologize for avoiding her. “Forgive me,” says Polly tearfully. “I like you, Max, I like you.”
As a toddler, I used to be disturbed by A Home Like a Lotus, particularly that ending, however I wasn’t certain why. I figured I might perceive it once I was older. I pretended to find it irresistible.
In a 1963 New York Instances article, explaining why she wrote for kids, L’Engle remarked, “It’s typically potential to make calls for of a kid that couldn’t be product of an grownup.”
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It was unusual to go to highschool at evening, and in a taxi with my father as an alternative of on the bus. The book-signing passed off within the elementary college gymnasium, noisier and extra crowded than I’d ever seen it in the course of the day; the occasion was open to the general public and filled with strangers. I carried two books for L’Engle to signal. One was my mom’s childhood copy of A Wrinkle in Time, which embarrassed me—certainly all people would carry that one!—however my mom had insisted. To right for this, I additionally introduced Troubling a Star, my favourite L’Engle novel and nobody else’s. I hoped it might talk to L’Engle that I used to be a special caliber of reader.
The road to satisfy L’Engle was so lengthy, and I used to be so brief. I couldn’t see her till it was my flip—then I used to be head to head along with her. She was older than I’d anticipated. Her grey hair was cropped shorter than in her creator picture. In my reminiscence she looms fairly tall even whereas seated on the book-signing desk; I’ve at all times assumed this was the exaggerated notion of a really small 9 12 months previous, however apparently she was certainly very tall.
She smiled an impersonal smile at me, the identical smile she should have smiled at hundreds of different youngsters. She wrote her title, nothing extra, inside my books. She didn’t say, “Wow, Troubling a Star? That’s an uncommon selection!” She didn’t say “You might be to be a light-bearer” or “You see issues invisible to lesser mortals” or “I like you, Frankie, love you want my daughter.” If she mentioned something in any respect, I don’t keep in mind what it was. The entire thing was over so rapidly.
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In response to the literary critic Dale Peck, nice writers “write tales which grow to be a part of our goals, however cult writers are themselves dreamed about.”
It’s been a very long time since I’ve dreamt about Madeleine L’Engle. In the summertime of 1997, I found Jean Craighead George’s Julie of the Wolves, and that was it for me and L’Engle: I turned a George completist and by no means regarded again. Till I started to write down this essay, I’d by no means revisited the Vicky Austin books.
It seems that once I’m not finding out them as if cramming for a check on how one can be essentially the most lovable youngster on the planet, I can barely get by them. On high of the whole lot else, they’re boring.
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Another factor I keep in mind in regards to the evening of December 16, 1996: After the signing, there was a Q&A within the college auditorium. This was my final likelihood to impress Madeleine L’Engle. I raised my hand and raised my hand and received ignored so many instances that when she truly referred to as on me, I used to be caught off guard.
My thoughts raced for a query that may convey that I, too, was a severe author. I blurted out, “How lengthy does it take to write down a e-book?”
She replied, “A protracted e-book like A Wrinkle in Time takes a few 12 months.” That was all she mentioned. Then she referred to as on the subsequent child.
I shrank in my seat, abashed. Hadn’t she given an extended, extra considerate reply to everybody else? Why had she been so curt with me? Why didn’t she like me finest?
However much more than that, I used to be dismayed by her reply. A 12 months? I might hardly consider something took so lengthy. Possibly I didn’t need to be a author in spite of everything. Who had that form of time?
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After I slogged by the Vicky Austin books, I reread A Wrinkle in Time. And if the Vicky Austin books put me to sleep, A Wrinkle in Time jolted me unsleeping. I’d forgotten how a lot I beloved Meg Murry, not as a result of she’s higher than everybody else—she isn’t; she’s ugly and argumentative and weak—however as a result of she’s so actual, so human, so totally herself. She’s lovable in a method that means that everybody else have to be equally lovable in their very own method, should you solely received to know them.
A Wrinkle in Time is astonishing, irreducible. The plot stays indescribably bonkers, maybe much more so for an grownup reader, however it rockets alongside so swiftly on the pressure of its personal dream logic that I learn the entire thing in a single breathless sitting. When it was over, tears have been streaming down my face; I used to be crying the way in which you generally get up crying from a dream. I wasn’t fascinated by Madeleine L’Engle in any respect. I used to be pondering solely of her e-book.
I want I’d understood sooner that I didn’t want something from L’Engle that she hadn’t already given me. I want I’d simply let myself love the e-book, as an alternative of making an attempt to make the e-book love me.
 
Learn earlier installments of YA of Yore right here.
Frankie Thomas is the creator of “The Showrunner,” which acquired particular point out within the 2013 Pushcart Prize Anthology. Her writing has additionally appeared in The Toast, The Hairpin, and Vol. 1 Brooklyn. She is presently finding out fiction on the Iowa Writers’ Workshop. 

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